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All You Have to Do
All you have to do is look at me
Then I start to get weak in the knee
All you have to do is stare
And I realize you know I'm there
All you have to do is smile
And I know my time is worth while
Talking to you
And being friends, too
It's all you have to do
To make me love you
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What You've Done
Nightmares cloud my brain
When I think of what you've done
Left me for dead, left me like that
I let myself believe it was all me
It was all my fault
For talking to you
For letting it happen
You killed me
Ruined me for my true love
Destroyed my mind
Destroyed my life
There's no turning back now
From what I must do
I've run long enough
I can't just let you
Get away with this.
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Maybe you didn’t
Have to leave so quick
Maybe you didn’t
Have to spread the lie so thick
Maybe, just maybe
You still feel something for me
Maybe, just maybe
You will set me free
Maybe you will
Stop all the pain
Maybe you will
Make me whole again
Maybe you will read this
And then again you might not
Maybe you will see this
And give it all a shot
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It was great from the start
I fucked it up pretty well
It tore apart my heart
And I still seem to dwell
I didn't mean to hurt you
I didn't mean to cause you pain
I wasn't thinking
I watched my life drain
When you said
You never want to hear from me anymore
I felt dead
And I know you think I am a whore
But you don't know
How deep the regret does run
The pain bleeds slow
I am more than undone
I miss you insanely
I don't think you know
And though I plea
I know you will say no
But I have to ask anyhow
Please can we talk
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You really think you can "limit" me
You think you can have control over what I do
You must really think you are something
You must not really have a clue
You don't know who
You are messing with, my dear
But I am warning you now
For I can be something to fear
You can't even look me in the eye
What makes you think you can fight
Well, I have got to say
This will be an amusing sight
You can't control me
But if you want to try
I'm not going to stop you
But when you fall of that pedestal
Try not to cry
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I'm leaving soon
I'm Dreaming below
The glowing moon
Leaving without regret
Leaving pain behind
Leaving you back there
You'll regret being so unkind
And trying to bring me down
This heart of mine
It's all there inside
Nothing is at all fine
Though all I do is hide
I'm giving up that life
Standing up for myself
Leaving the giant strife
Leaving it all behind
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You Think You Know
You think you got me pinned
You think you know me
You think I will fall for it
Once again
I won't play your games
I won't fall for your tricks
I won't let you fool me
Once again
You can pull out all the stops
Try to win me over
Try to convince me
To see things your way
I won't let you do it
I won't let you near me again
I'm an idiot
For even letting you talk to me again
I was an idiot for letting you in
For letting you manipulate me
For letting you use me that one time
Now I face the consequences
Of my mistake
Of your manipulation
Made to deal with things
That you left on my plate
Thank you so much
For making me
The idiot
In all of this
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One Day
One day he's there
The next we don't know where
Everyday a newly shed tear
Wondering when he'll permanently be here
Prayers falling on deaf ears
Hoping he won't cause her more tears
Like he has been for years
As his apologetic gaze sears her
This time it's for real
We hope she will heal
All because of me he's gone
He won't use her as a pawn
But now I feel guilty
Because it seems she is wilting
Like a beautiful flower
Without water
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Mature content
Suicide :icontracihasalittlefish:tracihasalittlefish 0 0
No Title
I just met you today
Already you make me smile
Make me feel something
I haven't felt in a while
There's so much in common
You are someone I can relate to
I just can't help but hope
You are sincere and true
The happiness you bring
Almost too good to be real
The reminders of the past
Try to hinder what I feel
I've been fooled before
So I expect nothing
But I will still continue
To hope for something
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Waiting for you
To reply to what I said
Wishing you really knew
I almost ran instead
I took a chance
And got no reply
Now I try to regain balance
Without a single cry
It was the hardest thing to do
To tell you how I feel
And for you
To sit back and say it's not real
I know what I feel
More real than you know
So how about we make a deal
And you just go
You've caused enough pain
And I won't take any more
There's nothing more to gain
By hurting me even more
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The Little Girl
Nobody sees the real me anymore
They just see me as I was before
I'm no longer the little girl
That everyone sees me as
The little innocence I had as a kid
Disappeared just like the little girl did
I may act like one to make all of you happy
But I'm telling you, that's not really me
I'm not a little girl anymore
I'm not what I was before
I am more realistic
And much less optimistic
I may pretend to be happy
But it is just you seeing who you want me to be
No longer happy, no longer innocent
Just sad and less optimistic
No more little girl
Just me as I walk into the world
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I'm trying to be silent
As I watch you talk of me
It seems so violent
Not the way you used to be
I want to tell you
How I really feel
But giving you a clue
Won't help me to heal
As a matter of fact
It will only worsen things
As I put on an act
To avoid your stings
So I have no choice
But to move on
So I can have a voice
And someone I can count on
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Beyond Redemption
You try to make me mad
You try to get a reaction
You can't affect me like that
What you've done is beyond redemption
You can't hurt me again
Every time you do
I just pick up this pen
And write about you
Dealing with it is hard
But something I must do
My heart is permanently scarred
And it's all because of you
But if I wouldn't have lived here
I wouldn't have met another
Someone I hold close and dear
But far from a brother
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I Wish
I wish I hated you
Then I wouldn't suffer
By looking in your eyes
Then I wouldn't want to cry
When I see your smile
Then I wouldn't want to melt
Every time I hear your laugh
Then I wouldn't get butterflies
Every time you touch me
Then I wouldn't was to kiss you
Then I wouldn't be here waiting
I wish I hated you
Because then I wouldn't love you as I do
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The Fires at Bay
The fire
Held at bay for so long
Finally consumes me
The river of tears
Falls again
As you tell me the truth
The dam of rage
I held inside for so long
Will finally break
If you come near me again
I will remain silent
As you try
To bring me down again
Try and control me
And the explosion
Will turn on you last minute
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Traci Hand
Artist | Literature
United States
Current Residence: Marquette, Michigan, in a fucking Dorm.
Favourite genre of music: German Metal! :)
Favourite photographer: Don't really have one
Favourite style of art: Anything, depends on the mood
Operating System: Windows via IBM Thinkpad
MP3 player of choice: iPod, I think.
Shell of choice: ...?
Wallpaper of choice: Reesh or this one that is a crystal heart that has the words Amour Amour on it. Via Rammstein.
Skin of choice: I like my own :)
Favourite cartoon character: Don't really watch cartoons...or tv much for that matter.
Personal Quote: I'd rather waste my life pretending than have to forget you for one whole minute- Crushcrushcru
  • Listening to: Please Don't Stop the Music by Rihanna
  • Reading: IM's
  • Watching: Music Video
  • Playing: Devil May Cry 4
  • Eating: RAMENNNNn
  • Drinking: More coke ^.^
[x] I am shorter than 5'4. (5'3)
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars. (One. XD)
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house. [no comment here]
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school. (lol)
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.

[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor's office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls. (I think so....yeah.)
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

[x] I've gotten lost in my city. (
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been skiing.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from MySpace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

[ ] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler. (Majorly.)
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. (Once?)
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[xxxxxxxxxxxx] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed. (never again)
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ I don't know. Does the one we had to do for school count?] I've written a eulogy for myself.

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

[ ] I can sing well. (I dunno....I sing ok?)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs. (I do my best not to.)
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person. (I'm both a night and morning person.)
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. (
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat. (That doesn't mean I am...I just like it. XD)
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts. (Eh.)
[not lately, but usually] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. (OH MY GOD I HATE SPIDERS. Dx)
[x] I am really ticklish.
[xxxxxxxxx] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games. (VIDEO GAMES YEAH.)
[x] I'm good at remembering faces. (Sometimes.)
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates. ("I didn't know it was March until it hit the third. xD)
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] All of those are answered honestly


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ash4love Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2007
Thanks for the :+devwatch:! :heart:

ash4love Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2007
Yeah...and not good snow...snow that hits you in the eye and it HURTS! Ugh... got it bad walking back from Jamrich this morning.

Originally, I'm from Menominee, MI. currently living in Magers. Yourself?
ash4love Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2007
Haha no, it's really not, but it could be worse I suppose.
ash4love Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2007
Haha, I live in a dorm too at good ole NMU
GothroStudios Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2007  Professional Traditional Artist
Thanks for adding me!
pixie-skara Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2007  Student
thank you for the fave on 'tattoo 4'.. much appreciated
janne-landet-poetry Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2007  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the fav!:heart:
Aramananana Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2007
Nice name.
tracihasalittlefish Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2007   Writer
Aramananana Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2007
So, does Traci really have a little fish?
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